Middle of the Week Musings.

Hmmm, happy hump day!

It is that time of week again, the middle of the week, two more days til the weekend!

And time for my musings of the week.

I am tired of the snow, ice, sleet, rain, cold, winter, blah, blah, blah. And this week was extra hard, I fell on the ice and hurt my "bad" leg. In case you don't remember, I tore my ACL about a year and a half ago, and it hasn't healed the greatest. So I was still experiencing some stiffness and couldn't bend down all the way, as in kneeling. They opted not to do surgery since the recovery rate wasn't all that great. So I have lived with it, doing as much physical therapy as I could. And the other day I slipped on the ice, yep my leg went right out from under me and I hurt that leg again! Thank goodness it wasn't as bad as I first thought it. I am still having some pain, and more stiffness than before, but I do not think it tore again. So I rested in bed for most of the weekend, just to ensure that if something was wrong, I couldn't damage it further. But as of Monday I was out of bed and up and at it again!

Middle age sucks. It is not a pretty process. When you fall down, you do not spring right back up again like you used to. And I won't even begin to go into all the other things that middle age brings. Needless to say it sucks!

I need some new goals for Spring. I have been trying to find some new goals for Spring. I have way too much time on my hands, and it is time to put aside the numbness of grief and get out there and start living again. Don't get me wrong, I haven't given up on living, but there were times when it was pretty tough. But I made it through all the Holidays and all I can say is YAY! Not that I celebrated them much, but I did make it through and that was a major accomplishment for me. I am glad they are done.

I have now had a curfew added into my life, yes that' right a curfew. I have to be in bed by 3am. Not that it is unreasonable, but it is taking some getting used to. I am so used to staying up til the sun comes up, that I have had to readjust my schedule, but I am finding myself getting up a little earlier in the morning.

I am finally coming out of that frozen state, and it feels pretty good some days, and I have found that I now view life in a different way. I think I have shed myself completely of the rose-colored glasses that I would don once in a great while. But in that, there are days I wish I had them back, even if only for fleeting moments. Being this jaded isn't always such a grand thing either.

Ooh well.....

Life goes on......